The Battle’s Not Over

The road back to health was not quick and easy.  Life has a way of moving fast and taking unexpected turns.  My husband’s open heart surgery two months after my last PET scan hit hard.  Again, the Lord gave strength and peace through all the new paths we were traveling. Now, I can see how…

Victory Achieved

“This is the hard one” the doctor said.  “Just like the final miles of a marathon, this will be difficult, you will need to push through.  This chemo dose will be strongest.  You will feel totally drained.  Just keep reminding yourself, this is your final dose.” Boy, was she right!  I felt I was at…

I Believe

The days became a blur as the chemo took its toll on my body.  My nephew had insisted I drink a freshly juiced glass of “green grass” concoction.  There wasn’t any grass in it but it smelled and looked like freshly mowed grass.  I’m sure my body needed the nutrients but what a mess to…

The New Normal

Blood tests, chemo infusions, more blood tests, napping, weakness all became a way of life.  The Sunday before the next chemo, I would feel strong enough to attend church, what a blessing.  Another joy was shopping.  During that same week before the treatment I would go grocery shopping. The look of concern and recognizion of…

Real Ugly

Women with scarves covering bald heads were a testament to the ravages of chemo. So it was no surprise when clumps of hair began clogging the shower drain.  It was time to do something.  The beautician clipped my long red hair very short.  I felted I had never looked so awful.  My identity lay on…

Not My Choice

The grayness of the rainy day matched my mood as we drove to the first chemo appointment.  Confessing to my husband that I really didn’t want to do this, was my first admission of fear.  He assured me he felt the same way but he wanted me alive.  If chemo would destroy the enemy in…

Preparation

The ugliness of the mastectomy did not prepare me for the  next stage of the journey.  Healing quickly from the surgery gave me hope. My garden called for seeds and plants.  I was happy to spend time working in the soil.  The time was blest with communion with God.  I knew He was with me….